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THE DAIRY
Mark:
...You know, Andy, we all are losing. Each one of us is loosing.
You and me, and Nate, and that actor, her friend, our favoured
at a time, do you remember him? For years he has been a symbol
of our generation, and suddenly - no one knows how and when
- he aged. He isn't still old, but time surprised and overtook
him, and he hadn't been prepared. His features have lost their
sharpness, the skin became loose, and he commenced to look
ridiculous. And, what's the worst, he lost his aggressive
determination that had been building his image. And what about
him now? Every day he tries to capitalize on his former fame,
and his manners of a superstar plus his new look give in result
a comical effect. He looks like a smiling old bag. He willingly
appears in television, even if they don't ask him, playing
a laid-back kind of guy, cool and relaxed, but in fact, he
is devastated inside. The despair and void...
THE HOUSE TO BE KNOCKED DOWN
The drunkard:
The smell. The very sound of this word thrills me and I'm
becoming anxious. In all my life the sense of smell has played
one of the main parts in finding the truth about the world.
As early as being a child, I felt as if crossing the threshold
of the real world, when I was walking in the wet and dark
streets of November. The streets were full of rotten brown
leaves, stacked into heaps that had been smouldering for hours.
The smoke trailed in the air, shrouding the town. Excited
with the scent, I couldn't calm myself down.
On another occasion, we were walking with a group of friends,
talking animatedly. Suddenly I lose contact with them because
of the smell of the entrance hall we entered. In a fraction
of a second I found myself in another dimension. The friends
stared at me, surprised with the lack of contact, understanding
nothing. I stood in front of them stupefied and focused on
one thing: what was the smell?
Once, during the period of the martial law in Poland, when
shops were empty and only sometimes you could get anything
in them, I bought a little English soap packed in a carton
box, I remember neither the name nor the brand. At home I
unpacked the purchase, soaped my hands and put them to my
face.
The experience was sudden and shocking. The scent of the soap
evoked projections before my eyes. I found myself in the end
of the fifties, on an August sunny Sunday morning during my
summer holidays in the country. As far as the eye could see,
white stool with a white bowl full of water stood in front
of each house of the village. Sons of the farmers stood at
them, stripped to the waist, washing themselves. Working for
the mines in Silesia, they came back only for two days to
take part in a dance at the firehouse. They were washing themselves,
and then they were washing their motorcycles that stood near
the stools. Nickel-plated parts of them sparkled in the sunlight
and reflected the sky. For long I couldn't identify the smell.
Only recently I discovered that it was the smell of the weeds
overgrowing the stream.
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